I love Saturday mornings, they usually consist of a brisk early morning walk through two parks. Brisk because I am on route to my Tai Chi class. Not being the most motivated in the mornings its usual to leave the house a little later than I would like to be on time for my class.
During my hour of Tai Chi whatever I have on my mind, any worries any stresses are burned away. It feels like a burn as well. I often get incredibly hot when doing the Tai Chi as the Chi moves around, realigns itself and does its thing. I usually finish the class feeling very relaxed and calm, like my internal organs and mind have had a good wash.
Then follows the rather leisurely walk through the parks. Having done this leisurely walk for some months now, I am beginning to get a real sense of a relationship forming with the flora and fauna in the parks. I stop to communicate with them and they are getting to know me and I them. Walking with the intention of recognizing all of the things that one encounters as their own unique manifestation of chaos changes things. Everything starts to look a little brighter; smells are more powerful things feel more alive. The experience of Tai Chi seems to open my awareness more to what is going on in nature around me and of my place within this cosmic dance of life and death.
I find that I am continually fascinated by the plants below.
In the winter these plants look pretty much dead but in the spring they well….spring forth and spread their leaves in an abundance of magnificence. In the summer the leaves are huge and shortly I expect to see them cocoon inwards again for their winter sleep. Humans are not that much different in this way. We have our moments of bursting forth is an extroverted manifestation of ourselves and then we need to cocoon inwards to retreat from outwards expression. Each one of us has a cycle like this in our own way. When we are cocooning it may appear as if nothing is going on but that’s not the case. In our cocoons we are processing, healing, planning and resting, doing all those things that are necessary for our well- being. This is the cycle of chaos manifesting outwards creatively and then dissipating which enables further creativity and diversification in the eternal dance of life and death. The secrets of the Universe can be seen in a single leaf.
Knowing that all things I see are unique manifestations of chaos and part of the Baphomet the same as I leads me to muse about my own manifestation of chaos. How am I manifesting chaos? Am I doing it as well as my flora and fauna friends in the park? How do you know when you’re doing it?
My current answer to that question is I know when I am doing it if my heart sings and I feel a sense of flow, a sense of everything coming together without effort. Time moves differently when in that state of flow and concentration is intense yet without effort. Some may call this being in alignment with one’s own true will.
So manifesting your unique expression of chaos is very easy, doing as often as possible what makes your heart sing and causes no harm. Being that which brings you into alignment with yourself and connects you to the chaos that is the source of all things. Remembering not to set up blocks for yourself but tuning in to the teeming matrix of life and death that surrounds us at all times.
It’s a walk in the park.
